Garnet

In the shadow, I am yearning  
To be swallowed by darken souls  
Wailing, searching, and burning  
To shatter the vow I made whole.  

The sanctity I once embraced  
Was folly in Lupin’s gaze  
Loyalty turned frail and erased  
My world intertwined in no exit maze 

Too numb to feel the warmth again  
No strength to fight  you  
Too weak to feel the cold disdain  
No strength to fight for you  

I offered Sapphire, Topaz, and Garnet  

Only to be returned with beads of deceit  

Losing to the stings of a thousand hornets  

Undignified, accepting all defeat 

No comfort words

I know it is not right

For you to be my knight

Protecting me from the blight

Keeping me close within your sight 

I know this battle is mine

Only I can turn the tide

But today I am not fine

And you’re nowhere by my side

Truly, I am alone

When no comfort words came

From the sinner that needs to be atone

Or from the wild and the untamed. 

With tranquility in my Soul

When the Sun burns brighter

When the Moon fills with serenity

When my heart is lighter

And days fill with serendipity 

I will know that I’ve found happiness

With tranquility in my soul

Breathing with calmness

With Life’s lesson ready to be told.

When I have already forgiven 

When I have bare it out to the sky

May this memories not be a shackle 

For it is the ocean, I’ll dive

How can I be resentful?

How can I be resentful?

When all I wanted was you

A pandora’s box, so colourful 

Filled with love, warmth, anger of youth 

I knew I had to experience it all

The danger and the heartbreak

With you, I felt so tall

With you, I felt all the aches

I choose not to be angry

I choose not to blame

The memories are beyond imaginary

But as real as burning flame

Are we no good for each other?

Or we just simply lost our way?

It is probable that it is neither

And our emotions have sway

It’s harder to breath

Knowing you’re not around

When it ended with no wreath

Being laid on the ground

I should have known better

I should have known better.

Not to open the door.

Keep it shut tighter.

Sleep on the cold, hard floor.

For it is better than to yearn

The warmth of someone’s touch.

Where it had to be earned...

With money, time, and a tinge of disgust. 

Why did it  keep slipping?

The wall, the guards, and the vigilance.

Was another soul’s affection so enticing?

Despite no guarantee of allegiance. 

Why the heart keeps forgetting?

The pain, the betrayal, the rejection. 

Coz it has no brain but to keep resetting?

In an endless cycle of dejection

When I returned I was confident,

armed with Pride and scrolls.  

But I was standing on hubris

With masked man and stories told. 

Without the gift of foresight,

How am I know to know. 

My passion have been blight

With resentment being sow

But until I break the shackles

And the covenant fullfill 

My life remains in shambles

And my fate here is seal. 

Eclipse

When there is an eclipse in the sky

Don’t tell me it’s the storm cloud

Even the blind can sense it

When truth is being shroud.